do you ever feel afraid of having a relationship ?
if you ask that question to me, my answer is ..

YES, I AM !!

just for information, i feel it now ! congrats to me !
maybe that is not really a fear of having a relationship,
fear is not in the sense not want to establish a relationship with someone, but just afraid.
doesn't mean I don't want to have a special relationship with someone, even sometimes i really want to have a someone special.
someone who really cares with me. someone who can make me laugh. someone who can be "the trash" for my story about life. someone who can become friends, bestfriends, as well as men who protect me.
i need that so damn!

do i feel the trauma ?
NO, I DON'T 


do i feel that all the man are same ?
sometimes, YES
sometimes, NO


do i feel afraid ?
YES, I AM.

the fact is, i'm afraid to hurt with the same SITUATION, the same WAY, and for the same REASON !